Thursday, May 15, 2008

A very interesting week

First, if you are reading this because you are friends of our family, then go to shifrissfamily.shutterfly.com and check out photos of Adam's graduation from Indiana University! Very proud and happy. And so incredible to have Amalia home; in fact, she just sent me the photos I put into my shutterfly account.

I say "interesting" and I don't mean that in a good way. I mean it in the way that you say something without wanting to be specific.

Things that have weighed on my mind lately:

--Abby has been sick, on and off, and lately more on, for several weeks. So fatigued that she cannot get out of bed and go to school. Nauseous. At first, they thought it was mono. Then, it may be allergies to wheat, soy and eggs. To say that this time has been emotionally challenging is quite an understatement. It weighs heavy on my heart no matter what else is going on.
---I am worried about my mom, and the fact that she has herniated discs and that is causing pressure on nerves which makes it difficult for her to move her legs. Getting into a car and having to swing her legs sideways is very hard for her. And she cannot even get into the pain clinic till JUNE 16!
---I have to have a uterine ultrasound because I spotted blood, and I am post-menopausal, so that is not a good sign. This may lead to a simple D&C, a hysterectomy, or to nothing. But still, in the spare moments when I am not worrying about Abby or my mom, I can worry about this.
---I am about to become president of our synagogue and there are many things I should be doing. Many things. And I feel guilty about letting these other part of my life invade my mind so much that some days recently I feel incapable of doing anything except the minimum.
---And, a situation at my job, which I cannot speak of online, but which has left me feeling really, really angry. I love the work and I am very satisfied with doing it, and with the opportunities that are there for growth and learning. And because I love many of the people I work with. But, at a time in my life when so much is going on to make me absolutely crazy, having a tense situation at my job has been almost unbearable. Humor and compassion from my friends are such a treasure.

There have been several nights lately when I have just been so emotionally wrung out that I have fallen asleep in my clothes. And tonight may be one of those nights.

Night.